I am tired and confused

… when should I feel rested? after a nice long sleep, after a nap, or after meditation??? It seems that I just do not get enough rest….or perhaps, I just do not achieve a deep level of sleep… in any case, it is time to get some shut-eye.

one thing is

cannot stop thinking about him, and the other is being drawn to him.  Every moment I am awake my mind flows to his memories… my heart and stomach get excited everytime I see a picture of him… I become weary… is it that my soul and his are connecting, even though our physical bodies are far away? It has been almost two years since I last saw him and it feels like it was yesterday…